. . . I mean, I really should be grateful for oh, so many things. My family, my home, our excellent crop year, my church, my easy, peasy life! Why don't I count my blessings every day rather than fret and stew over the things I can't control? Why do I let hurtful comments or perceived slights bother me for days on end? Why don't I do something about MY faults, MY imperfections, MY attitude? Why can't I go outside my comfort zone and meet new supportive friends, find exciting avenues for entertainment, offer my services for a worthy cause, be invitational? I truly think that I am a supportive friend, mother, grandmother. I've always been the cheerleader in the family. Urging committment, tolerance, perseverance. Why can't I have my very own cheerleader?
I've just been thinking about things lately. Deep thoughts (so unlike me!). There are people, places and circumstances that need to be changed. Even my blogging needs to be changed. And it all will begin with me. These new beginnings in my life won't come easy, or fast, and I won't get them right the first time. And probably not even the second time. But I see a light up ahead that will guide me in the right direction.
Now, before you worry that there are major secrets I'm keeping, please know that there are none. It is just that I'm not happy with myself. And I'm certainly not happy with the lackadaisical way I've been treating my own blog and my bloggy friends. There are a few loyal-to-the-bone friends that shoot me a comment every time I post. No matter the silly, unamusing or down-right boring content of the post.
So, what am I truly grateful for this Thanksgiving? My family, my home, our excellent crop year, my church, MY BLOGGING BUDDIES, my easy-peasy life! I'm grateful that I can be a good listener to those that are going through really rough times. I'm grateful that I can see through the gloom and scary parts of the world to find that compassion and dedication to make things better are still out there. I'm grateful that little touches of kindness are meant to be shared. I'm grateful that happiness can be a state of mind, no matter the situation. I'm grateful that you let me ramble today so that I can write down my thoughts and feelings freely, without judgement. I'll be reading this post periodically to remind me of my goals. I'm grateful that so many of you are willing to share your thoughts, your families, your homes, your talents with me. Inspiration is abundant here in cyperspace!
I'm wishing you all a blessed Thanksgiving! I hope your turkey thaws in time to roast, your green bean casserole doesn't bubble over, your yams have plenty of marshmellows, your whipped cream sets up for the pumpkin pie and that your pants have an elastic waist! I hope you are spending the day with family and friends that are grateful to have you in their lives. I hope you are happy!
Blessings - I got a million of them! Happy Thanksgiving my lovelies!