Friday, December 30, 2011

The year is ticking by . . .


. . . and I am holding on.  Again.

I'm wallowing in my annual 'holiday pity party'.

It starts the beginning of December but really takes hold of me the last week of the year.

It hasn't always been so.  But the last few years have left me anxious to see the season end.

I know the reasons why and I have resolved all of those feelings but I still can't help myself.

I truly have a good life.  People who love me.  Other people who care.

Believe me, it is all self inflicted.




I am usually content.

But I am not confident.

This new year will be different.  I mean it!  I really mean it!

I will struggle on whether to publish this post but you need to know the real me.  I don't know why I think you do, but you do.

I'll catch up with you all on the flip side.  The happy side.  The 'see me always smiling' side.  The 'making future plans' side.

Because this will pass.  It always does.

Blessings to you, my friends, in this upcoming, wonderful, glorious new year! 



14 comments:

Kathy said...

Well, I am totally a "glass half empty" gal so I can relate to this! Hoping 2012 brings you more opportunities, good health and happiness than you can stand :)

Kathy

Joanna said...

I hope these feelings pass quickly, it must be a dreadful time for you.

Wishing you a happy and healthy 2012.

xx

Createology said...

Thank you for your honesty and sharing. May you have a truly inspiring and creative 2012. Champagne Hugs...

Di said...

You know Connie, I have struggled with the holidays myself. I keep my self busy with projects but in all the holidays can be a bit to much. This year was better because I have my daughter, her husband and son living with us. I am grateful because we made a dream come true moving and my husband is thankfully healthy after cancer. I didn't mean to go on and on but wanted to let you know you are lot of and appreciate you sharing! Much love for the new year. Di

Angie said...

I can totally relate, Connie - I am so blessed and am very content with my life - it's ME I'm not content with. I think it's important to be honest to ourselves when there's an area of our life that needs work, but the problem is, I torture myself about those areas.

May the coming year help us focus our attentions only on the things God wants our attention focused on - and not more or less.

Blessings & Happy New Year,
Angie @ Knick of Time

Peace said...

Connie - I have a dark sad side too...shhhh, our secrets are safe. :O) xo

Jill said...

I hope it passes and doesn't return for you next year! I bet you'll have so much fun this coming year with your new shop. You have a lot of talent!

Linda said...

I think there are a lot of people who feel like that this time of year, Connie...but I'm sending a hug and wishing you a WONDERFUL 2012!

Tina @ TinyBear Studio said...

It´s a great post Connie and I´m all with you. Have it the same way every year at this time. Can´t wait to the new year to start. I hope you´ll have a lovely New Years Eve and looking forward to follow along in the new year.
xoxo

Marie Lost Bird Studio said...

Dear Connie,
have the most wonderfrul 2012.
Hugs,
Marie

Rhonda said...

You truly speak from the heart, Connie. I love your posts, all of them.

You speak the truth here and I'm with you, this too shall pass!

Happy New Year and let's support each other in all we do. xo Rhonda

Craftymoose Crafts said...

Wishing you peace and happiness that the new year brings!

Donna said...

Step right up and come here. Hold still... {{{{{HUGS}}}}}

Did I make you smile? LOL.....

Cathee said...

I get that...as my little 31/2 yr old grandson says. I give myself such a hard time at the end of each year...vowing to be less dramatic in my head,,,however I truly do understand we all have issues we overcome one day at a time,,,the only way.I too have a blessed life but struggle with ongoing depression since I was very young. HOWEVER..my meds,my self care and my loved ones all help...so no worries dear one! you are not alone..and the more we use our creativity/// the more we sink...it is a seratonin(brain chemistry) issue. anywho stay well,,,give yourself a break and have a good moment today!